This is as far as I got and then my brain just stopped. I can’t think. I can’t do anything right now. I’m so sorry. I’m so fucking sorry. There’s more I need to say and more answers you deserve. I promise the picture what I did when other victims came to me is misleading. I mean, I did not do enough and I’m so fucking sorry. But it’s not how it’s being made out right now. I need to clarify that at some point. but it took me 45 minutes to figure out how to post this audio, something I do every single day. I need time. I’m really nervous about what Andrew will do. I just can’t anymore though. I just can’t. I’m done. I’m done always thinking about him and how he will look.

I just want to make clear that I never did talk to Eli about it. I felt too embarrassed. I literally never told a soul except Lydia.